Home Sweet Home

After a week’s absence from the hubby, the teen and I have returned to the family nest and it is a profoundly comforting sensation to be reunited with your beloved spouse and have everyone where they’re supposed to be…for now. With the graduation of the teen just two years away and every day being so precious to me because of that, I love being in my nest and getting to spend the extra time with him when I can, especially with school starting back tomorrow. He also now volunteers with the adorable felines at a wonderful place called The Haven of the Ozarks.

I don’t know who enjoys his time there the most: the furry, purry creatures or him! And next month he plans to take his driver’s license exam and so, D.V., will be able to be more independent and pursue whatever activities he previously was dependent upon us for, which some times meant, due to our life’s circumstances, he couldn’t do some of the things he wanted. So for me, our time spent on the road trip was a nice way to wrap up the summer with some extra time with my extra special teen.

And now that I’m back with my hubby, I breathe a sigh of deep relief knowing all is right with the world because I’ve not left my better half somewhere while I’m enjoying the wonderful making of memories with family and friends. When you live out of state and your health and other circumstances (or theirs) make travel infrequent–even impossible at times–it leaves an aching in your soul for closer proximity and/or fewer health issues that would make regular, ongoing memory making that one takes for granted when they’re younger (or at least I did) an ongoing thing one must accept as a limitation that can be offered up to God or something that causes ongoing frustration. But we all make our own choices based on a myriad of factors, ultimately guided by the hand of Le Bon Dieu (“the good God” per Hercule Poirot in Agatha Christie’s novels), “who never has problems, only plans,” as Corrie ten Boom reminds us. I’m grateful for where I live at this point in my life. I also wish I could be closer or my family would move closer. We’re all where we’re supposed to be at this point for a reason. At any time that may change, as improbable as it may seem.

In the meantime, it’s good to be home.

Passing On

In one of those strange arrangements of Providence, this post is about what occurs after the marching on–which I wrote about in my last post (a long time ago)–is done. When we have fought the good fight and finished the race, as my 100 year old neighbor just did, we pass on. For those of us Christians still marching this is truly one of life’s most challenging transitions because we are both grieving a loss and celebrating a gain, just not our own. Last year we lost a truly dear man when Grandpa passed on the day after I wrote that last post. He was one of the most kind and gentle souls you could ever meet and his absence has been keenly felt by all of us, especially Grandma.

At that same time a dear friend from my young child-rearing days across the country passed on due to cancer and my favorite Wal-Mart greeter, with whom I shared a special rapport, also passed. It was hard to lose each of these special people but I rejoiced in their gain. And now our kind mayor, who is our next door neighbor, has lost his mother, our across the street neighbor, at the ripe age of 100 and so the cycle continues.

Birth, life, death. Starting, struggling to adjust to this wildly new environment, struggling to figure things out (especially all those big people who make weird sounds with their mouths!), and then going along at your own pace through the ups and downs of life (perhaps like those frustrating times as a teen) until major milestones occur, such as graduation, perhaps marriage or a religious vocation, the possibility of children and grandchildren, that–I’m told–underappreciated second half of life, and then the winding down of things if we are blessed with the gift of a long life like my neighbor’s.

I’m not sure what all kinds of events will be passing by in 2014 but I imagine there will be more people passing on. I hope and pray that I can treat each day as a gift and do the best I can to live it in the present moment and not fret over the past or worry over the future, two things I’m continuing to work on as my life marches on.

May this day find you fighting the good fight until the time comes to pass on to the best that’s yet to come.

Marching On

From The Sacrament of the Present Moment, Jean-Pierre de Caussade, trans. Kitty Muggeridge

When the senses are scared, faith, taking everything in good part and for the best, is full of courage and confidence….To live by faith, then, is to live in joy, confidence, certainty and trust in all there is to do and suffer each moment as ordained by God. However mysterious it may seem, it is in order to awaken and maintain this living faith that God drags the soul through tumultuous floods of so much suffering, trouble, perplexity, weariness and ruin. For faith is needed to discover in all this God and that divine life which can neither be seen nor felt but, nevertheless, in some mysterious way, unmistakably reveals itself….

Living by faith and the instinct of faith are the same thing. It is joy in God’s goodness and trust founded on the hope of his protection; a faith which delights in and accepts everything with good grace….Faith always lives in God and his works even when they seem harmful and blind the senses. Scared, they suddenly cry out: “Wretch, you’re lost! At the end of your tether!” And faith immediately replies yet louder: “Hold fast, march on, fear nothing.”

March on. I like that. Here’s to marching on in the face of fear when, despite our difficulties and failures, all we have to do is keep walking–or marching–by faith. And the simple prayer “Jesus, I trust in you” never hurts either.

All Will be Well

There are many days when this doesn’t feel true. And there are many days when it may not be true for some of us–at least not in this mortal coil. But I thought of this quote and wanted to share it here because it comes to mind from time to time when I am anxious about something and it comforts me. Because, in the long run, it really is true.

“All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.”

–Dame Julian of Norwich

Spiritual Friendship

“Illness can be a pilgrimage. Marriage can be a pilgrimage. Any moment, really, where we recognize God’s presence can be a pilgrimage…Life itself is a pilgrimage…We are all on a journey toward God. It is up to us to decide whether that journey will be about simply surviving the daily challenges or becoming a pilgrim on the road to union with our Creator.

Spiritual friends are natural companions on the pilgrimage journey. Even when they can’t be physically present to us for some reason, they can be present to us spiritually through shared prayers, conversations, discussions about spiritual readings, and simply talking about their lives.”

Walking Together: Discovering the Catholic Tradition of Spiritual Friendship

Mary DeTurris Poust

Do the Next Thing

Do The Next Thing

From an old English parsonage,
Down by the sea,
There came in the twilight,
A message to me;
Its quaint Saxon legend,
Deeply engraven,
Hath, as it seems to me,
Teaching from Heaven.
And on through the hours
The quiet words ring
Like a low inspiration–
“DO THE NEXT THING.”

Many a questioning, many a fear,
Many a doubt, hath its quieting here.
Moment by moment,
Let down from Heaven,
Time, opportunity,
Guidance, are given.
Fear not tomorrows,
Child of the King,
Trust them with Jesus,
“DO THE NEXT THING.”

Do it immediately;
Do it with prayer;
Do it reliantly, casting all care;
Do it with reverence,
Tracing His Hand,
Who placed it before thee with
Earnest command.
Stayed on Omnipotence,
Safe ‘neath His wing,
Leave all resultings,
“DO THE NEXT THING.”                                                   

Looking to Jesus, ever serener,
(Working or suffering)
Be thy demeanor,
In His dear presence,
The rest of His calm,
The light of His countenance
Be thy psalm,
Strong in His faithfulness,
Praise and sing,
Then, as He beckons thee,
“DO THE NEXT THING.”

-author unknown

I first heard of this poem through Elisabeth Elliot almost two decades ago and ran across a pamphlet version of it this morning. It was so encouraging to me that I thought I’d post it here as I imagine I’m not the only one who needs friendly reminders from time to time to avoid overthinking one’s To Do list and just get on with your duties, leaving the outcome in His hands.

Trials & Encouragement, Part II

From today’s daily mass readings comes more encouragement–and this time from an infallible source–for those in the midst of affliction.

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we many be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.

2 Cor. 1: 3-6 RSV

It’s good for me, whose spiritual life often functions like the not so great aspects of my ADHD brain<g>, to have reminders that all our sufferings are not in vain, especially when they feel like they’re getting the best of us–even if we never find out in this life why we had to endure them.

Here’s to helping us better trust God that our sufferings, as well as those of our loved ones (and really everyone everywhere), are all a part of His plan, whether or not we get cc’d on that plan. As Corrie ten Boom sagely said, “God does not have problems, only plans.”

 

Trials & Encouragment, Part I

I just reread this encouraging passage quoted in Jan Karon’s Light From Heaven and couldn’t resist sharing it. If I’d run across it during the past several months perhaps I wouldn’t have had such a long hiatus in posting<g>, as health issues have been weighing me down and I’ve had to stick to the essentials of Getting Through Each Day. Anyway, without any further ado, here is something to ponder and perhaps share with a loved one, as we all, as a friend of mine who is in hospice care helps remind me, have trials to bear, whether they be big or small. Additionally, I know that her ministry of blogging, begun after the cancer diagnosis, constantly strengthens me for my smaller trials because of her decades of courageous example of bearing up under other trials for so many years before this devastating one.

If the trials of many years were gathered into one, they would overwhelm us; therefore, in pity to our little strength, He sends first one, and then another, then removes both, and lays on a third, heavier, perhaps than either; but all is so wisely measured to our strength that the bruised reed is never broken. We do not enough look at our trials in this continuous and successive view. Each one is sent to teach us something, and altogether they have a lesson which is beyond the power of any to teach alone.

H. E. Manning

Thank you, Debbie–http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/debbieschafer–for being a living reminder of God’s graciousness to us in the midst of our trials!

Collage

collage (From the French: à coller, to glue, French pronunciation: [kɔ.laːʒ]) is a technique of art production, primarily used in the visual arts, where the artwork is made from an assemblage of different forms, thus creating a new whole.

NB–This post was written last fall & for whatever reasons I didn’t post it then. It seems fitting to finally get it up today after my delightful visit to Paper Odyssey, a one of a kind store run by a one of a kind couple, Tony & Sara, in Eureka Springs, AR, who provide their beautiful wares not only to those of us in the Ozarks but to creative folks all over the world. If you are into (or would like to try out) visual journaling, collage, stamping, etc, using professional quality mixed media supplies then you owe it to yourself to check out this gem of a store! See below for contact info.

I recently realized that my life is like a collage. This was an interesting insight to me  after an unexpectedly difficult summer. In addition to some additional responsibilities there was the tedious trying out of assorted new medications and treatment protocols for my chronic illnesses, at times resulting in copious amounts of brain fog, sleep deprivation, and a general sense of exhaustion, all of which meant blogging was more of an effort than an outlet and so I switched over to tweeting the bits and pieces of inspiration I wanted to share. As is usually the case with life, the unexpected events that figured into the mix were both challenging and encouraging, the most significant of these being the vanishing of daily chronic pain and therefore the end of years of pain meds; Deo gratias!

One of the neatest things that occurred during this challenging time of ups and downs physically and otherwise was that I began seriously playing around with color, words, and images strictly for the sheer fun of doing so. Somewhere near the end of the summer I discovered that there’s even a name for this sort of activity: art journaling. Upon learning this I felt a brain burst of sheer joy and vindication that my penchant for playing around with markers and watercolor paint, collecting images that have a strong appeal to me (including but not limited to pictures of favorite works of art), and keeping a portfolio (or play book, as I have more recently referred to it) of visually oriented inspirational information that I need to be reminded of periodically–in order to help me better see The Big Picture in life–was actually something shared and enjoyed by others.

I don’t know why in recent years I frequently tend to slip into the sort of thinking that implies I am so different from my fellow companions on this planet as to be an anomaly but it happens. When I used to live in a city I felt far more connected to my fellow lovers of beauty because there were so many places where our lives would intersect naturally: art galleries, public parks, those special restaurants, shops with a creative focus, bookstores, coffee bars, tea rooms, and of course the greatest of all public forums for lovers of beauty, the library. Why, you ask, the repository of books and not works of art? Well, for me there’s an never-ending quest for information that is beautiful in and of itself, alongside the individual beauty of learning or experiencing something new. All my life I have basked in the glow of new experiences, particularly those that are information or aesthetically driven. Music, art, nature, people, buildings, imaginary worlds and their delightful panoply of familiar friends–all have contributed to making my life anything but boring.

However, when my access to those things that feed my soul has been restricted in some way or another, as relocating to a rural area and experiencing chronic illness have resulted in, life gradually (and initially unrecognized by me) began to take on a more tedious feel. A couple of years after having reached its most crushing point I now have a much better understanding of what makes me tick and how I not only can but must seek to balance my life’s hardships with those things that feed my soul and enable my particular brain chemistry to thrive instead of just survive.

So to all you fellow lovers of words, images, beauty, humor, philosophical insights, or whatever moves you to live, laugh, and, most of all, love more deeply, give yourself permission to incorporate time into you life for whatever form of “play,” as I like to call it, will recharge your batteries, connect you with others, and, above all, keep you sane.

Paper Odyssey
63 N Main St
Eureka Springs, AR  72632
http://www.paperodyssey.com
PaperOdyssey@earthlink.net
479-363-9800 

A Living House

Sorry for the lapse in posting (not that I’ve ever been particularly consistent). I think the best way to sum up things is to say there’s been a lot of construction going on…In fact, someone else has already said it better than I can.

“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of–throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.” 

C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

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